The big desire I still don’t have…

I am a great teacher. And like all great teachers, I teach what I need to learn the most. Anyone who has been a Sister Goddess over the last 15 years has witnessed me, from a front row seat, as I have taken a wildly passionate idea, and turned it into a multimillion dollar business. I have been transparent about the blood, the sweat, the tears, the huge learning curve, the discipline, the risk, the thrill, the excitement, and the deep gratification that comes from creating not just a business, but a revolution, and becoming a leader who trains leaders.
I knew I wanted to be a great writer. And publish books. Done.
I knew I wanted to be well known and do lots of television. Check that box.
I knew I wanted to have a daughter and be a great Mom. I am.
I knew I wanted to be wildly and wonderfully successful, and serve the world with my gifts. Got that in spades, more to come.

The secret longing inside my story is this: One of the reasons I started the School was that I wanted to live every drop of my passions—and create a partnership with a man who would meet me, love me, enhance me, expand me, love every cell of me, and I him.
And the beautiful thing is that not only have I had some delicious experiences of that desire, in some deeply beautiful relationships, but I have been a huge catalyst for those things to come to fruition for the students in my classes. I cannot tell you how many thousands of women hold me and my work responsible for their meeting the guy they are with, or falling in love with their soul mate, or getting married, or saving a marriage, or re-creating a marriage, or having children. Not only am I amazing at teaching women how to fall head over heels in love with themselves and step into their power, but also how to love a man and create ecstatic partnerships.
And yet, this goal has remained curiously just out of reach for me.
So, the question is—not just for me, but for all women who have a desire that is just ever so achingly out of reach—how to stay spiritually alive when your yearning is, as yet, unfulfilled?
How to remain intact, spiritually, emotionally, and physically, when the very thing you long for most is not even a tiny speck in the distance, on the highway?
How to love your life with the enthusiasm of a child, when your heart is filled with longing for something you do not have, and worse—it seems everyone around you has it by the boatload?

And that is where the spiritual spine of the School of Womanly Arts comes into play.
Time to call on the Goddess inside the term ‘Sister Goddess.’
Because it turns out that yearning has a power.
Measurable power.
And that desire that lives inside you is not just you, but a duet—between you and that which is greater than you. And this desire breaks you open, breaks you apart, and re-creates you into the woman you were born to become, that you never could have touched if you did not acknowledge or live your desire.
See, what happens to most women when their desire is unfulfilled, is that they turn on themselves. Which is a bit like a sparrow attacking itself for not being a hawk. Ridiculous, right? But women do not understand that they are much more than human. And how could we? We live in a world that teaches us that the masculine is divine, but not the feminine. But if we know that we are Sister Goddesses, and that our longing is divine, and that our desires are precious, not only to us, but to the earth herself, then that knowing changes everything. We become the bearers, the carriers, the holders of the longing that has the potential to transform the world we live in.
If we can hold the thought that our little human body, the address of our eternal soul, is the keeper of the delicate flame of desire, then we can relax and fall back into the storyline of our lives, knowing that our yearning will carry us safely, and sweetly, in perfect time, to fulfillment of the desire in some more wonderful way that we could have ever dreamed.
But first, my sisters, my loves, we have to remember we are much much much much more than human. We are, in fact, divine.

Today I want you to celebrate relaxing into the arms of your longing. How? Draw yourself a bath, light some candles, put on some music and pretend that the bath water is your desire fulfilled, bathing you, surrounding you. If you don’t have a tub right now, you can do the same thing with a shower, and feel showered by your desire. No shower? Jump into the ocean of desires. No ocean? The lake. No lake? A pile of pillows. No pillows? Hit your ass in a grassy field. I think you get the point. 🙂

In what ways do you celebrate or acknowledge the divine parts of yourself?
How do you deal with yourself when you are frustrated that you have not yet got what you want?
What did you find valuable in this blog today?
Do you agree? Or disagree?
Tell me in the comments below.
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With so much love and pleasure,
Mama Gena

P.S. The hottest party of the year is right around the corner…are you coming to Mastery Graduation on June 24th??

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